[ sent alva and val to the surface, gone back to grab steve. why hadn't he? fear? selfishness? did he honestly believe steve was right behind him? thinking back on it now, how could he not have known he'd do something like that? he's steve freaking rogers, after all, what had he really expected? andyr hates himself right now, and he pulls the other arm up and around steve's back, face tucked against his neck, and arms squeezing tight to him, as if he might slip away any second. Steve's touching at his hair, and giving a light kiss at the top of his head, and Andyr feels like he could shake apart for how much he doesn't deserve any of it. ]
How I'm holding up doesn't fucking matter. [ the words, and the heat in them, are lost into the curve of steve's shoulder. he'd heard that sentence steve trailed off from, sometimes he feels what? why is andyr's emotional state at all more important than that? ] I'm not the one that died in a goddamn inferno.
[ andyr inhales deeply, and lets it out in a slow stream, before pushing up to press a light kiss against the side of Steve's jaw, plying at him. ] Just tell me. Please?
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[ sent alva and val to the surface, gone back to grab steve. why hadn't he? fear? selfishness? did he honestly believe steve was right behind him? thinking back on it now, how could he not have known he'd do something like that? he's steve freaking rogers, after all, what had he really expected? andyr hates himself right now, and he pulls the other arm up and around steve's back, face tucked against his neck, and arms squeezing tight to him, as if he might slip away any second. Steve's touching at his hair, and giving a light kiss at the top of his head, and Andyr feels like he could shake apart for how much he doesn't deserve any of it. ]
How I'm holding up doesn't fucking matter. [ the words, and the heat in them, are lost into the curve of steve's shoulder. he'd heard that sentence steve trailed off from, sometimes he feels what? why is andyr's emotional state at all more important than that? ] I'm not the one that died in a goddamn inferno.
[ andyr inhales deeply, and lets it out in a slow stream, before pushing up to press a light kiss against the side of Steve's jaw, plying at him. ] Just tell me. Please?